reconnecting

first things first, i haven't blogged in a cool while and that is just UNacceptable; therefore, i apologize. sorry blogger, sorry. today's let's take a deep look into this continuous hate affair, if you will, i seem to be hooked on. that would be, yet again, the interior motives of the people around me. i swear to you it fucking amazes the shit outta me to just take a step back for a second and say "what the fuck is up with THIS shit?" and, thus, the analysis begins. senior year of highschool rolls around and it's like the fucking real world is turning it's ugly face in my direction. but need not worry blogger! i have this theory, about people, about myself, about motives. honestly, i've said this once and i'll say it again. the ONLY WAY to get yourself in to the top in this world is to knock someone out of that precious precious spot. and that's gonna be me. i'm done being a pushover, i'm done being nice, this time, it's all about me. might sound just a tad bit selfish but honestly, i couldn't care less. in order for you to get somewhere in this highway to hell type world is to be good at something, no, be the best at something, and have people do all the dirty work for you. the end. that's my choice of life. i don't need anyone but me, regardless, everyone will eventually let you down, therefore, don't rely on anyone but YOU. that's it.