down to the nitty gritty.

facing it, dealing with it, just plain-old doing it.
those are all phases of life i don't want to agree with, or accomodate to.

just today, thinking about what my future has in store for me, scared the living fucking daylights out of me.
highschool type shit is insignificant at this point. the 11th grade mind is usually all about the present, all about the shit that's happening right now. i suppose i'm just a w e e bit different than my fellow brethern. i know where i wanna go, i know what i wanna do.

i wanna live to see the grimey ass streets of frisco each day as i awake, i wanna do things i only can dream of doing. dreams becoming reality happens as fast as dreams becoming dust, in any case, vaccuum that shit.



something else i learned today, shit HAPPENS, and it happens for a fucking reason, so stop hiding from that shit. juxatposing what your mind says and your body does will honest-to-god blow your damn mind, might well near drive you insane. no kidding.

life throws some pretty unexpected shit at you, roll with those punches, punch life back in the throat and say "hey fuck you!" because doing what your heart says IS life, and life has to recognize that. see the world for what it is, in all it's glory, a piece of shit love affair. that's the way i see it.



for what it's worth, live your life the way YOU want to.
all morals aside, fuck-up's essentially are what make you, well, you.

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