delightful.

the certain conundrums faced by the billions of teens all over this mother earth. challenges are met on a daily basis and i can't seem to get over you. millions of people are dead because of great chances they've taken--that fucking GREAT PERHAPS that is not a fictional place but nonetheless something far more scary: something real. fucking amazing right? in this world full of fake as fuck people, you would think that your dreams, the ones you keep soo carefully hidden, are the false advertisement, right? wrong. they may as welll be the only real thing so far. reality is but a dream within a dream. poe spinned his the phrase to create a sense of falseness however i see it as this great, huge thing. creating a sense of false nothingness, nonetheless. you see this great opporunity, something you would love to have but you have acquired something else already, something that may not appreciate YOU as much as you appreciate it. something that you've given a go more than a few times already. something that you have tried and failed but you want sooo bad you're not giving up. lemmeeee get back to this new thing, this precious seed that wants to plant itself into you're fucking garden of life. you reject the shit outt of it, because maybe you still have hope in the other, less attainable circumstance. this shiny new thing does definitely not have as much value as that old, rotten thing but it doesn't matter because to you, that old thing is this fucking immaculate item that you can only DREAM of right? because no matter how many times you beg to differ, it doesn't matter. you can say you don't want that thing anymore, but the truth is, if it makes itself available to you, you'll ditch that NEW thing and jump right back on the old thing's dick. i'm sorry to be so fucking vulgar, but we're metaphorically speaking right? sometimes i wish things were a little clearer, a little easier to understand. sometimes i wish that a "dream within a dream" wasn't so REAL. and sometimes i wish that maybe i wouldn't spend so much time--scratch that--WASTING soo much time, pondering upon the motives of a certain individual whom i have immense fucking feeling for. sometimes, i wish you would just gimmeee the time of fucking day.