freedom

yes yes you were always that person whom i could never really "let go" that person i could never really "hate" but hey, no offense i don't recall ME ever being that person to you so nonetheless, today is day one of my OVERness of this less than stress more of a mess type deal. most of this time i've been a fool i'll admit i wouldn't quit i'd always try to blame this controversy primarily on myself but allow me to reprimand my demand for your constant approval, i don't need it anymore, i don't want it anymore. it's personally fortunate for me at this moment to be unfortunate in "letting go" because this is somewhat like those photobooth pictures, two fits perfectly but three's sort of a CROWD lemme just put it that way. never in my life have i been so fucking naive i don't really know what i was thinking all along, thinking it would work out, analyzing every motive of you with an attempt of finding some vague connotation that HEY! you might actually feel the same way towards me but don't let me get too carried away here, i mean to think that someone would ACTUALLY have feelings for someone that they've been attached to for about 6 months now, oh no no no! not to mention someone who trusted you sooo much, someone who gave you their all and to be POLITE someone who gave themself to you, no way! sorry my sarcasm might be a tad on on the bitter side but i need a release i don't care anymore it's too difficult for me to sit back and juxtapose you and me, we're too different people and we do things for totally different reasons and that's how life goes. but give me a fucking break, fucking spare me, i don't need you anymore you're nothing to me. this is seemingly a harsh blog, i could've just described the good in you, which i acquired knowledge of when "i knew you so well" but conclusively i don't know much about you at all, i don't know you at all. i don't see any good in you as of now.

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